I’ve been “here” before, too often for my liking. Yet, part of me is happy to be “here” again… for at least I’m not where I was.
I’ve know Him for 16 years, but for much of that time it is as if I only knew of Him. It seems so easy to return and be conformed to the passions of former ignorance (1st Peter 1:14). I’m well aware of the former condition of my heart and mind before accepting Him into my life. I’m no longer that man I once was, but the qualities of that man try so hard to return. It is a battle, a battle fought every day, every moment. I’m just happy to be “here” again in the place that I can humble myself and at least recognize this.
I was “here” 3 years ago. I was “here” a few years prior to that, and “here” a few years before that. Although happy to at least be “here” now, it is not where I truly desire to be. Each of us have the opportunity to live above and beyond whatever we could ever imagine. Measure of this is not performed by examining our possessions or personal accomplishments. It is measured by examining our levels of peace, love, and forgiveness. These are qualities of God and an indication of where we are in our walk with Him.
He “is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us.” (Ephesians 3:20) This only happens however if we “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” (Romans 12:2) This is the life I need to live, it is “there” I need to be. More importantly as a husband and father, it is “there” that they need me to be.